AJ McLean continues to struggle with addiction.
The Backstreet Boys singer revealed to People that he relapsed over the past year, but his wife and kids continue to help support his sobriety.
“You know, it’s interesting about sobriety with family and with kids — you still have to put yourself first, and that’s been a real big struggle for me,” McLean, 40, told the magazine. “Look, I have no shame in saying, I’ve relapsed over the past year. It’s no secret that this is a disease, and that it’s a daily struggle.”
The crooner said that putting his family’s needs before his own created added pressures to make everyone happy.
“Are my kids and my wife a huge support, and a huge inspiration? Yes, a hundred percent,” McLean, who shares daughters Ava Jaymes, 6, and Lyric, 20 months, with wife Rochelle, added. “But, at the same time the biggest problem I deal with, with them, is putting myself first, and not my family first. Because in my mind, that’s what you should do, you should put family first. You should put your kids first. But because I’m still very codependent, I’m Mr. People Pleaser — and I think a lot of that comes from being a performer and wanting to see the crowd happy, and seeing everybody around you, and loving the attention — I want to make sure everyone’s cool.”
He added, “If you do that too often, then you forget about taking care of yourself, and you do tend to get lost in the sauce. And that’s happened to me numerous times.”
McLean sought treatment in 2001, 2002 and 2011 for depression and excessive alcohol consumption and now surrounds himself with support groups and attends meetings frequently. Now, McLean, who’s set to be part of the Backstreet Boys’ biggest world tour in 18 years, is grateful for the life he’s had with his career, friends and family.
“I have no regrets,” he admits. “I think I did everything the way I was supposed to, I guess. Maybe I did it right, maybe I did it wrong, but no one’s perfect. And I’m still sitting here today. So obviously, thank God, someone’s watching me upstairs, and I’m doing something right.”
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